Sunday, April 11, 2010

What is my purpose?

Do you ever wonder what your purpose in life is?
This vacation was awful for a number of reasons. At the beginning of break word spread that two high school seniors from my town were killed in a car accident. At the end of break there was more news of another sudden death of someone who was just a year younger than me from the area. What is going on?! So much of the news coverage reminded me of when Emily died. So many unanswered questions. Candle light vigils, memorials at sporting events- it was all too familiar. I limited my TV watching and newspaper reading this vacation- stories of these young kids were everywhere.
I think I know what I am supposed to be doing with my life- or at least what I want to be doing. I want to help other people. I want to be that person that other people turn to when they need someone. I want to build communities, fight for justice, and work towards peace.
I've felt very conflicted these last two weeks in NY. I keep searching and searching. I don't even know what I'm looking for anymore. I'm not even sure what brings me back to NY. I think I'm ready to say goodbye for a while.
Back to North Carolina tomorrow...looking forward to reconnecting with my girls, as well as my friends...and remembering what my purpose is.